I’m really finding this split a lot different to the last. I was so naive the first time and also we weren’t as long together and I didn’t know at that point what I wanted for the future.

Also, other grief I hadn’t dealt with came up and really derailed me with anxiety at the time so the focus was not really on the breakup at all back then, it was about getting on top of crippling anxiety and panic attacks.

This time it’s more about him and the relationship and the plan I had in my head which  is gone.

Im really glad you got some clarity about the summer. Do you think it’ll help you on your journey to decision or to heal?