Kkasxo,

wow well done on the weight loss, unless you’re only 4 stone, in which case, the weight loss might be not so good, but otherwise well done! I’ve lost 7lbs but my aim is 14, so I’ll keep struggling on!

Me ex walked away in my case and yet I’m still agonising over it. I think that’s where you and I are different, you’d say ‘f**k it, I have to go on and be happy’ whereas I’m still STILL trying to figure out how I can make it work with him. It’s ridiculous, but it’s where I am. I didn’t think I was going to spend any of my life without him and I still haven’t adjusted to the change yet.

Lets talk about regret. What would you regret more…..going back and it not working out again or going forward alone and always wondering? Counselling wipes me sometimes too but I feel like I’ve pulled some crap out of my brain and off my heart and then I’m a little lighter!

I have counselling tomorrow because I tend not to be too bad at the start of a week but Fridays can be bad, so I’d like to see my therapist on a bad day to explain the full extent. I’m also meeting my old male friend for another long walk. Those 7lbs won’t shift themselves!

I hope Victoria is doing okay too.