Shelby,

Happy birthday doll! I hope you enjoy your special day and being surrounded by those that you love and love you dearly! I hope you have a lovely week off 🙂

We are all here to support one another, through the ups and downs. And yes I agree, sometimes it is difficult to explain the need of contact to someone who only sees black and white. As I say, for me that was what I needed. Regardless of where I am at right now I knew that I needed to have that conversation to allow my mental to move past it. There is just something that feels a lot like relief when you finally release all the things you have been holding in. It’s not enough just writing them down or even discussing with someone that those thoughts aren’t meant for. On that note though, if you do decide to go for it, whether it be a letter, email, text or you do decide to reach out to meet with him just bare in mind that you likely will not receive the response your heart would want (rather you’ll probably receive the one your rational mind is already prepared for or none at all). But that’s okay. At this stage you are not looking for a response, you are looking for a moment of complete release. I hope you make the choice that works best for YOU, don’t worry about what other people say! Everyone will always have an opinion!