last night i fell asleep at 4 am, then when i woke at 7 am.. i checked on my phone and it turns out she replied my text at 5 am. i didn’t try to reaching for her anymore so far. i’ve ignoring everyone, i’ve turned off my phone.. i think i’ll turned it off for some months or even more, idk it’s the right decision or not. i still feel so fucked up to be honest, i kinda feel that suicidal thoughts back again, especially in the middle of the night.. i cant sleep.