thank you for saying that…but seriously maybe im actually not that good enough. especially that im gay… if they know about that im really sure they’ll even treat me more badly or even maybe dump me.

i will try that anita.. i hope it’ll help me. and about my ex, i just texted her again.. i was acting like i didnt know her depression there.. i was act like im okay and like nothing happened. i  was saying like ‘hey i saw your favorite movie in the theater! is it worth to watch for me now?’ is it a good idea that i just texted her like that? i did that because i still want to be there for her.. and i miss her… and also because she ever told me that she wants to talk with someone and feel normal.