Hi Anita, Ben, and Mark,

I wanted to update you all as your reflections were very helpful to me.

I am sure why I began not feeling good. I just started asking myself more and more what was the message for me. I realized I want to move to a rural area. I currently live in a urban city. I noticed I feel the most peaceful when the first thing I do is wake up and take my dogs for a hike. Ever since I made that realization I felt content again. And its been consistent. I am not sure if the realization was a coincidence in timing. I am not holding off on being content until I move. I feel good now.

As a side note, I’ve been reading about attachment theory in adults and realized I have an avoidant attachment style. Now that it is more on an awareness level more me, I am learning to not see dependency as a weakness.

I just wanted to expressed my gratitude.