Shelby,

Yes I’m still going to therapy, it’s the one routine thing aside from work that I’m actually managing to stick to, although I wouldn’t be lying if I said I tried to come up with several excuses not to go!

The lack of energy or interest in anything is exhausting!

I reckon that you are at a point now where contacting your ex is not even to rekindle anything, more so it’s just to see if you’ve still got some kind of access to him should a situation arise where you need him. Sort of like me & my ex, I don’t necessarily want him around but I NEED to know that he’d be around if I needed him. It’s a load of sh**e if you ask me!

I don’t know with the house hunting again. I’m so up and down with everything. I know I need itnlw more than ever but financially it terrifies me. I spoke with one of my seniors at work today and it appears we’ll be starting a new contract a little drive out of London for about a year/two in the oncoming months.. if so and I get allocated to that contract i’ll be moving up there and away from everyone here. It’ll be cheaper financially and maybe good for my mental space. So who knows.