no she didn’t stalk me. that’s an entirely different post.  thinking about history makes it worse.

just google CEN and it will explain everything.

i hate writing about it and hate when i do, now i regret it

im just trying to keep my head above water

i just want to know how to get rid of the feeling that everything will go wrong. its like this feeling that everything is precarious. days like this i think i will disappear  or have to kill myself