Dear Anita,

Yes, i better choose. The choice is mine.

It may not feel that way often, because we get swayed and directed by the exterior.  Pulled in so many directions.  We often lose sight that we are in fact in control.

In fact this happened to me yesterday. My husband and I came home from yoga (he came with me which was nice).  I instantly felt that I needed to tend to many matters (all of which were social).  In robot mode I couldn’t “see” the difference between a “need to do” that was voluntary versus involuntary.

For a moment there it felt that I was burdened with so many tasks – as thought they were not a choice.  But if  I took a second, all of these “tasks” were voluntary, non urgent, non-priority situations, (such as planning the trip to visit my friends baby, making the reservation to meet my cousin, etc).

I have gotten so used to stress and drama, that if I do not take a fine look at what is going on – I can easily form any situation into such.

Whether it be rushing to work, or rushing to a social gathering – the feeling can be the same.

That’s when you know there is a problem.  When there is difficulty differentiating  – when it becomes tough to see when I have a choice in the matter.

Am I CHOOSING to be stressed right now? Am I?