Well I’m hoping to get the courage up to talk to her this week.  Yesterday was a doosey.  Everything was good, had a snow day, kids were all playing and having fun.  I came home from work early and we all had a good day, then about 5:00, my 8 year old daughter came inside the house, she looked all sad and poopy.  We asked her whats wrong and she said she just wants to talk to me. We said she can talk to both of us.  She said she “liked it the way it used to be”.  Holy Cow! instant tears from my girlfriend and attitude.  Not towards my daughter, just in general.  I told her that my daughter was just tired, cause she was very tired from playing all day.  I honestly think she was just saying that to get attention.  I’m not dismissing it, i do think she feels some of that, cause she did tell me personally she is tired of all the fighting.  I think she means between my girlfriend and her kids, cause there is a lot of that everyday.

Well that all hit my girlfriend really hard, and again she started comparing us to others.  SO….  I’m thinking later this week when my girls aren’t home I talk with her.  Tell her that some families are compatible and maybe some aren’t.  That maybe too much damage has been done on my part and overall to come back from.  That we all do love her and her kids, however this is not working out.  Either my kids are upset, her kids are upset or either of us is upset.  That we need to figure out something and maybe she can move in with her mother for awhile, until she can figure out her situation.  That I’m not forcing her out right now or untying but we need a plan.  And most importantly that I will help her in any way and as much as I can to be able to get back on her feet.  This is going to be so hard.  She is so depressed already.  For me it’s almost easier for me to be “trapped” then to hurt her more.  I know that i need to do this.  It’s just so hard.  She loves me so much and I feel like i really have ruined her life… and her kids…  I really do.  I wish I would of never had her move in.