Thank you Mark, I’m new to this site so I hope I’m responding in the correct format…

this relationship is unbalanced. If it weren’t for him pushing me to move in and get married, I would have not questioned what he was doing with the house etc. If i didn’t do that, he would have gone on pretending like his life was perfect. A lot of things came to the surface and he freaked out- i suppose it’s for the best. Again, I would have worked with him to better himself etc. but maybe he finally came to the conclusion that he was probably never going to change and needed to “jump ship” before he actually got me involved with his life and then it would be terrible to involve a child. He knows better and is a good human so I think him “ghosting me” is really him saying- I’m not worthy of you and you deserve better. We simply can’t connect on a deeper level if he is in a deep dark place.