Anita,

i guess I would have to say my relationship with my mother is…. hard.  She has apologized to me just not very often.  There have been times when she has helped.  Over the weekend of my 40th birthday she came to visit and the year and a half of a building nervous breakdown peaked and I had to make a change quickly. She was there for me and made me realize I had to move out now.   It seems unhealthy but it’s better than it used to be.

With M. I wanted the sex it just….was disappointing after. It was very frustrating because at first there was a connection but as soon as he said this can’t go anywhere he cut himself off emotionally and I felt like I kept chasing it.  It was sex and no emotions and I thought that’s what I wanted in the very beginning.  I found out during  I wanted comfort and a connection.

i feel so frustrated. I’ve seen him at work walk in front of me by several feet with me walking straight ahead and him crossing the hallway and he will stare at me and then look down when he can’t see me anymore as he walks.  What the hell??

lindsey