Dear Girija:

I think the desire in you awakened, the desire to spread your wings and fly into the open sky, and then fear landed heavily on you, crippling you again. The “lost and weary” even more lost and more weary than before because of that hope awakening and defeated by fear.

We humans are driven by desire, like other animals, filled with that joy of the call-of-the-wild, until fear blocks us and then we figure: if we don’t hope, if we don’t desire, life will be easier.

But is it? After all, you stared this thread after giving up best you can on hope and on flying, and you were “lost and weary”, as you state in the title of your thread. And now, You are recovering,  I am guessing, from that temporary awakening of desire and joy and back into the more bearable “lost and weary”.

It is okay with me if I don’t read from you again. I have no agenda with you, personally. My agenda is understanding us, humans, as we have so much in common, no matter where in the world we are, you and I and everyone who is reading this.

anita