Dear Cali Chica:

The softness… here is the problem with accessing that softness, it will include you feeling again softness toward your mother because this is what the young child that you were felt, softness for her mother. I don’t think this is something you want to feel again. I wasn’t able to bring that same softness to my own awareness until I felt confident that this softness will not move me to renew contact with my mother. I promised the child within me first, that no matter what, I will not bring her mother back to her life/

Feeling the softness to your mother will motivate you to reconnect, to tell her you love her, to want her to love you back… this is my concern.

anita