Dear Anita,

Oh my goodness!!!! – never in the last 2 years of our conversing about this topic did I think of things in this way. Ever.

I loved her so much that I hated everyone. I wouldn’t love anyone because they all hurt her. I  was loyal to her that way. 

Anita…do you believe that I am still loyal to my mother, the mother voice? And that many of my actions,annoyances, and attacks on my husband – and the missing, just now developing full respect for him, as he has for me – has to do with this loyalty?