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Hi Anita, at this point it is unbelievable! I am so hurt. I think I am about to get my period because these last days have been hard!! I am so lost. Do you believe in projection and shaming? I know we disagree on narcissism but I do think my aunt is narcissistic and I believe when around her or even getting a call from her lately makes me feel shame and depression. I feel it’s because at this point I think she just wants to win because she knows I am on to her behavior and keep my boundaries. It hurts I am not going to lie. Like hell because sometimes it feels just like when I left my ex! Like starting all over. I don’t know how I got myself into this mess. I honestly don’t understand why I put myself in abusive situations. It is so scary. I am going to look at another place tonight and haven’t heard back from the woman I spoke to originally. I am so ready to get out! I feel like I need to live alone but that would pro long my dream of owning, so you think it is worth it? Also I am tempted to go back to Florida because so far I have been defeated by family. They do not want what I am serving and vise Versa! It’s heartbreaking and terrifies me thinking of being in this world alone. So sad today