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Hi there,
Well I’ve had an eventful few days and by that I don’t mean interesting gossip, I just mean a few days full of events I attended!
The gig of Friday night was good but I enjoyed dinner beforehand with my friend more, it was nice to catch up after months and I didn’t get wet which is also a plus. The gig on Sat night was fun, we danced and laughed and enjoyed ourselves and we met up with my sister and brother in law who were out for their anniversary and we all got home pretty late and babies woke super early on Sunday morning, so needless to say Sunday was a write-off. I looked over my shoulder a little in case I saw sight of my ex, but no sighting thankfully. And then there is that little tiny piece of your heart where you feel sad and disappointed that you didn’t cross paths.
I was so exhausted I had to go to bed at 3pm and then I just collected take-away for everyone’s sunday dinner as I would have been a serious health hazard in the kitchen that day! Back in to work on Monday morning like a zombie but then had to get some energy to go to another concert in the festival with my Dad. It was amazing, he loved it so much and even got emotional during a couple of songs. He really appreciated me taking him out for the evening as he doesn’t do much in terms of enjoyment anymore.
But today, ye can imagine how I am! A shadow of my former self, I’m so tired! I’m definitely too old for a few nights on the go and super early mornings! BUT…..im off work for the rest of the week, so that makes me happy. I’m bringing my 12 year old nephew to see the Lion King tomorrow and to the amusements because he’ll soon be starting school again and I haven’t spent much time with him as he lives with his mum- she and my brother are separated.
Friday my brothers girlfriend has booked me to do her makeup for a wedding, so I’m making Thursday a me day – which will probably involve nothing but bed! I need to get exercise in though as my diet over the weekend took a major hit! I’m really trying to stick to my healthy eating weight loss plan though as it was genuinely making me feel better about myself.
Some days I miss my ex a lot and feel pain at each memory, other days I’m totally detached and don’t really feel anything at all, but those days are generally days where I’m not remembering as such, so I don’t know where my head and heart is at. It hurts very badly some days….particularly this week, as it did about a month ago for this week. So who knows what I’m at?!
Kkasxo? How was Bermingham? I’m guess you’re feeling pretty much like me with tiredness this week!
Michelle….do you brew your own beer? That’s unreal! Sounds fun and also practical if you like beer!