Thank you Peggy. It makes a lot of sense. I am able to break things down and understand that outside of my relationship with my mother, she is a person who has suffered a lot in her life. This has me wanting to care for her. The difference is that I don’t expect her to be anything more than she is to me now. My ex in a way has showed me this. I told him once (in one of our breaks) that I can’t keep chasing someone to love me as I have been doing that all my life with my parents. That was a moment of clarity that was shown to me by the higher power but when I started telling myself stories, I back tracked and stayed with him knowing that it wasn’t right.

I will not quit on myself again this time. I am going to spend time with myself. For now, I am giving myself 6 months to date myself and no one else. Once I can establish a relationship with myself, I’ll look into getting in one with someone else. I am going to heal and grow from this pain. I am determine to do that!

thanks you and namaste.