Thank you for the thoughtful answers. Meanwhile, I have been trying hard to focus on my world without him and also trying to accept that maybe I will never really know the “real truth” about why it ended. Most of the people close to me say that I was not “too needy” but I just didn’t get what I needed with him and maybe I should have left long time ago. It is easy to say it, but I have very real feelings for him and I miss him every moment of every day. I am still confused about whether or not I should contact him – I would definitely more than willing to try again, but a part of me feels very reluctant to be the one who contacts him and runs after him again, as it was always me during our relationship.