Dear Cali Chica:

The following is my train of thoughts, stream of consciousness, I don’t have a destination in mind as I type the following:

Something about you being your mother’s soldier, her hero, her super child, SCC, her golden child, her pride, or supposed pride, her Promise, the dancer in events, make her proud, her social butterfly, make her proud-

– all those efforts, for what?

Maybe what I am going for is.. were you really her hero, her super child, her golden child or were you  only imagining that you were those things, building these images around things she said, things she said but didn’t mean?

Did she make you believe you were all those wonderful things to her but you weren’t really those things to her?

anita