I’ll probably disappear for a while, but do you think I should also tell her why I am leaving? like tell her I just really really like her and have for years? and my mental problems just make things worse and I am looking for more reciprocal friendships but that I can’t ask her to recipricate, she has to do it because she wants to? and since her man I feel like she’s been distancing the friendship and I don’t wanna be “that guy” that comes between them and her happiness or anything plus I would never try and pursue her because I feel like she deserves better then me but maybe that’s just me putting her on the pedistal, and the more closer I feel to her the less I feel for her, or if I lose that feeling I get a little clingy trying to get it back. Also that I keep thinking fondly that 1 summer and those several months since Oct last year until the last time we hung out for a hike before her man. That maybe I will reach out many many years when we are much older and try and start over again. If she tells me not to leave and wants me to stay, I will probably tell her “please let me go”. She’s not happy when friends leave because of “feelings” getting in the way, wants them to share their feelings with her because what it does to the persons body inside them.

She was mad when a “they” she was friends with told her he/she can’t be friends anymore because he had  feelings for her, but there was more too…like he/she saying “Oh, our type does not interest you?” and he/she was coming back to the friendship when the feelings went away and he/she can be a true friend.