Hi Sofioula,

If you really do feel suicidal then you need to seek professional help.  Your doctor may be able to prescribe antidepressants and recommend other therapies.  You have your sister to help you.  Perhaps it would have been your anniversary but that hasn’t happened.  It’s easy to feel emotional at Christmas.  It happens to the best of us.

You are not a failure just because one relationship didn’t work out.  Two people didn’t make this relationship work.  You need to work on your self-belief, self-esteem, self worth.  Learn to love yourself.  Take this failed relationship and use it as a springboard to create a better future for yourself.  Tell yourself how brilliant you are and list all your good qualities or the good deeds you do for others.  What did you love to do as a child that you may have neglected as an adult.  Bring these things back into being and move forward with a positive frame of mind.  Counteract every negative thought by replacing it with a positive thought.  Make your mind up that you are going to have a very happy new year and begin today to create that.

With best wishes

Peggy