The call did nothing for me, no feelings to talk about but it could be because of my depression. I typed what I wanted to say in notepad and said “Before you go can I read something I wrote for you?”, she said “Sure”, then I said “You know me, when I wanna talk about something my mind goes blank so I gotta write it down”, after that I just said what I wrote down, not word for word but off the top of my head so it did not sound like I was reading something.

As for my “way of words”, I just say what goes on in my head. I think she said the call was way too short was because she was taking a break from helping build small yurt I told you they are making. This will also be the first time she’s ever been out of the country and she’s really excited. IF I decided to call her and we talk about her 2 trips i’ll try asking for a coffee just down the street, if she says no maybe I wont say goodbye, i’ll just block her.