Hey, it’s me again.

I feel devastated. I learnt this morning from a friend of D that D don’t consider me as something else than a friend. I’m indeed in the friendzone. I can’t describe properly how I feel. It’s as though something heavy fell on my head. A bit dizzy, extremely sad, can’t stop crying, but the pain remains. It’s a nightmare. I can’t think properly, I’m still in shock. It feels as if I’m bleeding without interruption.

That friend of D told me that D has been trying to tell me that she don’t consider me as something else than a friend but failed because she fears that she may hurt my feelings. It means that she cares at least a bit for me.

I don’t know what to do and I feel that I won’t be able to work properly in the next days. I really hope that I will feel better tomorrow. I’ve been thinking about inviting her somewhere in order to talk about all of this (even though I’d prefer if she was the one coming inviting to talk)