Dear Anita

Another thing, Gaia: you are not boring and you are not dull

I believe it when I’m by myself, and I have plenty of time and stimulation to put some music on,daydream and feeling like I’m beautiful, badass, everything on the book. The Gaia of my mind isn’t dull or boring it’s true, she is capable to turn life into art, she’s. Performer, she’s just good. But then, as I said, she only exists in my mind. The Gaia who has to actually live, and move, and interact and just exists as a real human being isn’t that much special or interesting. Yes it’s true my mind may hold some interesting stuff but there’s just no place for it in real life. That’s why I hate reality, I hate who I am in reality, because that’s the real me. Someone who has nothing or seems dull, sometimes I wonder if I’m ever made for this world. I know you don’t like me talking myself down but that’s how I feel. In my dreams things are epic, I am cool. In reality, things never change and I am silly, dumb, quirky, just can’t do or say something right