@adelaide1 you are doing so well chick. Don’t be so down on yourself! You seem to be going through the stages that are expected and at a much better pace than I did. It took me years to see how wrong my relationship was and realise my worth. I put him on a pedestal, you need to stop doing the same and remember something better or greater is waiting for you out there. You as a person are strong, you have so much to offer. So feel the anger and let it remind you, you are strong to have tried and will come out of this even stronger. Each day will get easier but don’t suppress the emotions feel them and release them and soon you’ll have let go and ready for your next chapter. Keep chanting to yourself positive words. Sooner or later they sink in!