Dear Gaia:

Just before I read your recent post, I made a little note to myself on paper having our recent communication in mind: “I’m making absolutely no difference on tiny buddha, not helping anyone”, and then I read your post. Thank you for caring enough to write back to me and letting me know that you value my input and remember some of it. It is the good in you that motivated you to write this. It makes me smile this very moment as I have this image of you in my mind, being a good person.

“the Histrionic personality about my mother and the Magnifying Glass in my mind because of her influence, her being so insufferable to cause a chronic cringey feeling in me”- the strong connection between your current distress and your childhood is right here in this sentence.

Thing is, you expressed a whole lot of your suffering on your threads. I read all that you wrote about your suffering, over and over again, going back and re-reading so to incorporate new information into the old, to understand better and better, many hours of that. And I did it because I take your suffering seriously. It is not okay for a person to suffer like you have, (or like I have).

So please do listen to me, or more accurately, read and re-read my words, there are many hours in it, good intentions, insight that I earned through years of my own healing work, and close to five years of studying here as I communicated with many hundreds of people of all ages and life situations.

As a matter of fact, is there anyone in your “real life” that put all this time in trying to understand you? How about half the time, or a quarter of it?

Doesn’t this make me real, in your life?

Thank you for helping me be honest today, I didn’t expect to express myself this way today.

anita