Dear Gaia:

“By the way with the ivy analogy, the tangible thing to lean on isn’t necessarily only emotional support but.. “- I noticed you doing this before: I give you good input, and you point to something and proceed in a different direction, not staying in that one place I illuminated.(This is not criticism, so don’t be alarmed, I did it myself in the past, looking away from what would be painful to look at). I pointed to you not having anyone to lean on in your home where you grew randomly. But you ignore it and point to something else. Because you don’t want to look at what I said, not wanting to look at it emotionally, to feel it, that is.

Therefore, even though what you pointed to reads interesting to me, I don’t want to go there because I want you to go back to what I pointed to: how it felt being a child/ your whole life growing randomly because you were alone, no support, no one to lean on.

Interesting, the last words you wrote: “to make myself better known to you”- if you looked (if you were able to look) where I am pointing, how you felt then (and still feel) randomly growing, alone etc., it is you who will get to know you better!

I am looking forward to read from your journal entries and otherwise.

anita