So I will be calling her sometime next week, asked if I can call next week and check on her.

Me: I’ll call you next week and see how you’re doing if that’s alright.

Her: Sure! Sounds good

I really feel like going back to her was a mistake…I just KEEP feeling like I am really not  important to her anymore. In the past I felt really important to her sometimes even if I wanted to end things, like when she would be sad when we didn’t talk on the phone or be really happy to hang out with me and reading the vibe off her texts or how she acted it did  feel pretty good and I  did feel important. But I just can’t feel important and judging by her texts to me I really am not  an important person to her anymore “it is a little hard when friends get hurt because of not a lot of contact, I don’t like it. But not your fault I totally get it”, I feel like it’s back to before we became friends before this thread was made…nothing is there and I am back at square 1 after all these years. I used to be sad and find a way to keep going but I can’t find a way no matter how much I try, how much I keep letting her know there is a problem and she just doesn’t really care to fix it, because our friendship really died off a long time ago, once she met him and I feel like it’s just ME because she is still in contact with her other friends, says she loves them, how grateful she is for her clients at her work, her man, her family…but me it’s just silence. I can keep coming back after ending things but I am always going to feel this way…like I keep setting myself up for failure and I KNOW it. I don’t miss her per say,  phone convos aren’t that great anymore but I miss how we used to be, how I used to feel connected to someone and they felt connected to me…it probably was a mistake to tell her I changed my mind about ending the friendship basically…it’s the definition of insanity. Also that summer is still the best summer of my life. I feel like the best thing to do is just block her, but I have tried that many times and I just keep coming back.