Dear Matthew:

You are welcome.

“How do you change a thinking pattern when what you see around you doesn’t reflect the one that you want to believe?”

Don’t believe what you want to believe, believe what is real, that is, what exists, whether you like it or not.

“I feel very lost, like I were left behind, and I have no  idea where to begin“- I suggested you begin with asking your friend for a date, but because you are not interested in dating her, find something that you do want and assert yourself in the context of accomplishing that thing that you do want. Start small, that will be the beginning that you need.

anita