Also, I just wanted to add this. I’ve accepted the way things are between us. Well, logically I have. Emotionally it still doesn’t like it, but I’m well aware that it is out of my hands. As my favorite saying goes, “It is what it is.” The main things I’m looking for help are, are understanding why my reaction to this one is so much worse than any other break up I’ve had before. Why I’m having such a hard time letting go. I know time will take care of it eventually, and I just have to keep going forward. I guess I just needed to vent a bit and actually get the story out(for obvious reason, I’ve had to keep a lot of it secret from most people). During everything, I knew it was wrong. I never wanted to be a home wrecker, I rationalized it in my head by saying I wasn’t the one breaking them up. She wanted out, I was just giving her the strength to do it. It wasn’t just fooling around with a married woman, because she was wanting a divorce and to not be with him. That in the end, she would be happy and that was what mattered. But after it was all said and done, I can’t help but feel guilty and like a piece of shit for messing around with a married woman.