Hi Anita. Today I met him and we talked about the space and what he was thinking for the past week and a half. To sum up what he said, here it is: He stated that he felt so distant from me and he knew he wasn’t properly communicating with me. He always thought I was complaining every time I mentioned what was wrong and the complaints were every other day. Because of that, he was anxious and worried every time he would call or text because he thought I’d list out complaints and blame him and that drove him away. He even told me he was so worried that I was unhappy and because of that he just kept blaming himself for it all. He believed that he couldn’t do anything to make me happy and when I asked him about this space and him being unsure, he said he really wanted me to be his partner but he was just always worried and anxious with me.

I listened, then responded saying maybe it’s best if we just take the time to ourselves so he can heal first. Even though I do not want this to happen I hate that he feels this way towards me. He feels anxious and worried constantly and fears that we will fight all the time, when I simply just want to talk to him. After I said this, he responded saying he really wants this to work out and that we can use this upcoming summer to really heal the brokenness and come together as a whole and be happy.

You see, I agree with his proposed solution but to me in the back of my mind, if we’re still together working this out, I’ll always worry if I’m saying the wrong thing or doing the wrong thing. I’ll always worry if he’s anxious or worried, or even fearing talking to me. I really love him and I’d do anything for him but after today’s conversation, I am at a loss. I’m not sure what to do. I love him and I want to be with him. I just want to be happy with him.

What do you think of all of this?