I will. It’s just very hard for me to process all of this.

I keep reaching for my phone wanting to call him. My intuition keeps telling me to… I do not like this feeling.

I was going through old screenshots and these were dated in July 2019.

He said “We will work this out, you’ll see improvements from today and onwards, we just gotta work within our limits.  I love you very much, never ever forget the bigger picture”

In a different screenshot he wrote this: “I don’t give up easily, u know that. I want it to work as badly as u do”

Another screenshot he said how he wouldn’t like taking a break from me because not taking to me, will make him sad.

Even last night on the phone call, he said he would still want to keep in contact with me and he said he doesn’t know how he can move forward without talking to me. My heart is telling me to message him but I also tend to act on my emotions a lot.

I was talking to my counselor, and she said to do what my heart says. And that if I decide to contact him, I should explore what I should say to him, what potential responses would be, and how I would feel about those responses.