Dear anita

Yes i think that’s the main problem that connects each of my issues which is me always feeling inferior to others… therefore it leads me to try to show off to erase it. This inferiority feeling also causes me to unable to communicate properly with strangers, due to me afraid of their judgements and lead me to freeze in the middle of the conversation.

Honestly my inferiority still exists, its just that now i can control it better than before. I hope i can control it better and better throughout time, especially the height part as it’s irreversible.

But is there any ways for me to forget the shame that i feel (the one i wrote previously)… because i cant predict what the people that i showed off before are thinking right now. Like i cant explain to them one by one about this.. as it’s my personal matter.