Thank you Anita. I think you identified my patterns correct, and you are right in your advice.

However, I believe that I’m getting better, but I’m still have some healing to do – I feel like a part of me is aware that the last guy was immature, however, a part of me still hasn’t realized that and misses him. I guess that is understandable after break up.

I also have to change my behavior, and in future when a guy grows distant and isn’t good to me walk away – although, this time it only lasted 2 months, and I was also thinking about break up a lot, and would do it very soon if his behavior didn’t change – so I guess I’m improving.

And I do want to be happy again without needing someone and practice mindfulness and gratitude not just when I’m in pain but even in better times, as I think I make better decisions when I do that.