Dear Elise:

Good to read that you are no longer reading such stuff. Unlike your partner who told you that “it was just sexual exploration”, I think differently. If you want to, we can look at (in the next few posts) what was behind your interest in what you read at the time:

“”I only read it because I wanted to feel small and helpless”- as a child, did you feel small and helpless, and/ or were you expected to be strong, to take care of others’ feelings, to hide your own needs and your own weakness?

anita