Dear Ry:

“it felt good just to get it out”- you are welcome to post anytime, just so to get it out.

“Is a woman’s love an addiction for me?”- it is a great desire, beginning with desiring your cold, emotionally unavailable mother’s love.

“A way to fight the loneliness?”- we are social animals, we are not meant to be alone for long.

“Why do I constantly feel like a woman can save me, even though I continuously push women away who get close to me?”- maybe because what you see in a woman (beginning with your cold, emotionally unavailable mother) is both love and rejection: You gravitate toward the loving part and run away from the rejecting part.

anita