Hi Samir. Thank you for your kind words.
I checked out your link, It truly summed up my feelings.Part of me feels I have no rights to this grief. His girlfriend stayed by his bedside through his treatment, and was there when he passed away. I feel sorry that she doesn’t have much contact with his family, so miss’s out on their support.
I like to believe he’s looking down upon us all.
I try to live a much better life, one not dominated by getting into another relationship. I need time to heal, and to forgive myself.
Hopefully when I’m honestly ready to meet someone new, we’ll both be well balanced with no need for all the mind games and dependency..