Hi Tai ! The only problem what I see here is that you are thinking too much. Simplify your thoughts. Your happiness and your peace is within you you don’t need to search anywhere else.

Always keep in mind ” life is 1% how you make it and 99% how you take it”. Start looking for positivity in all the things around you. Start living in present and stop worrying about future. Check out these two stories. It might be helpful for you.

http://upsohigh.com/i-would-have-done-it/
http://upsohigh.com/the-little-contribution/

“Some people pursue happiness others create it” ….Good luck 🙂