I ended it by text… And have blocked him from contacting me… I am not proud of how I handled it but I feel like I had to protect myself.. He is hurting me over and over again.. I have told him how his behaviour is hurting me but nothing changes.. I feel numb… I don’t want to let go… But I don’t see any other option…I know this will be painful but I can not love someone who continually rejects me…I am sad for us both… part of me realises this is the right thing to do and another part is secretly wishing he will fight for me… we all deserve to be feel loved and I recognise his rejections make me want his love and approval even more… This is all ego.. I can’t pretend any more… I also feel slightly relieved to not have carry around all this jealousy and pain… And I am truly thankful for this website to you John and Vanessa… I don’t feel so alone when I can come here and share my feelings…

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