I would agree i have little time practicing those skills regularly. I allow the world to suck me into being productive which i have a low threshold for, that leads me to addictive behaviors. If i were to be choosing self care behaviors over addictive types i would be working less and making less money. Im already struggling financially, but i feel the need for a serious break. This pandemic has not been easy for me financially or emotionally. I get caught up in this catch22 constantly and choose productivity over self care every time.

Addictive behaviors are still a huge problem for me I am trying to work on. As i wrote that last sentence it made me feel sick. The fact that i struggle so much makes me feel like a fraud. Which makes me feel like a bad person for having the job i do. How am i suppose to be helping people if i’m like this?