Dear noname:

“Often when I’m having these episodes, my life story viewed from the perspective of a powerless victim… Trauma is stored in the body… The trigger being the feeling of powerlessness, such as I felt as a child”- bingo.

The key to your healing is not to continue to re-experience the old experiences of trauma and powerlessness, but to experience something new: power!

Power over the intensity of your emotions, power over your choices and behaviors, and as much power as you can exercise over your life situations, beginning in small ways, proceeding over time to bigger ways.

“The implication here is that I have not actually processed my trauma and reconnected with my authentic self that was suppressed as a child?”- I think that you connected massively with your authentic self of the past, a powerless child, a victim. You  now need to connect to a new self that is in you, awaiting your attention and eager to earn your trust. This new self is a powerful man.

anita