The more I talk about him and recall things Anita, the more grossed out I feel now. What was I doing with him! I think I was so swept up in my own dreams/fairytale and so clouded with self-doubt that I believed that I was doing everything wrong and causing him to ignore me and didn’t look at him for what he was. I also couldn’t wrap my head around how can a person be so inconsistent with someone he claims to love and would keep spinning in my head. His post-breakup behaviour was so telling too. I think I definitely dodged a bullet. There is so much I read Anita about selfish partners, abusive partners which literally fit him to a T. It was as if I was reading a write-up on him.