Thank you Peggy. That’s my mindset as well and that’s how I try to see it, but it’s not as easy in practice as it is in the thoughts. Guilt is still hurting me. Regret is still punishing me. Believe me, I am trying to let go, but I might need some professional help for this as I can’t seem to move on from the past no matter how much I try. And believe me, I have been trying harder than ever.

Anita, thank you as well. I don’t know what that something good might be. I create my own happiness and my experiences, but the way life worked before is that doing these things that interested me (biking, hiking, etc.) usually led to meeting new people, new girls, new networks, and new something. It’s just been so stale lately that I don’t remember what it feels like when something cool or interesting comes my way because of a coincidence. I am trying to send out positive thoughts into the Universe and I really hope to get some feed back. I am not asking for help from anyone or the universe. I can do it all myself, but I would be nice to get a break here and there.