Thanks Hurtone,
I can tell you are real hurt. Yes, I am hoping that i am passed that shaky stage, as I told rbcrbc, I feel good now that i didn’t message him, as she said; he probably saw it the best way for me and for himself to leave it like this, I am not angry at him anymore, I just miss him a lot, but as she said, it’s more about me than him. If by any chance he thought I was getting too attached or clingy with those couple of messages I sent back then, this leaving it alone makes me feel a lot better about it as well, I do not want to confirm that judgement if that was the case. Anyhow, I have to confess though to both of you, I would have preferred that he would contact me and apologize and etc. But then I started to imagine it and I felt, do I really want that? What if he did do that, what am I gonna do with it now? I am not in NYC, and he is not gonna fix other issues I have right now in my life, do I really want him to see me like this, while I am waiting to get my life back on track? The answer was no. Every time something “bad” happens to us, once we snap out of the emotions and the hurt, we see that someone above was looking out for us.
Thanks again!
Love
Danubelle