Hi Kelly.
I am here. That is the best help I can give you at this moment. Only you know the best thing to do.

Deciding to give the letter is a way for you to create closure for yourself and for him. The hurt confuses things. I get that.

Doesn’t seem like you are a mess. Seems like you are doing an okay job of taking care of yourself in a state of turmoil. So just close your eyes and I will hold your hand for a bit to support you whatever you do.

Jerry