Dear Janet:

It just occurred to me, notice this- you wrote: “I am ashamed (in front of others, especially my ex-classmates and ex-friends) that no one finds me beautiful enough or partner-worthy“-

-but then you describe how others find your ex-classmates and ex-friends, not beautiful, but unsatisfactory, as they “criticize their bodies”. Plus,  they don’t treat your ex-classmates and ex-friends as worthy partners, but as inferiors, as subordinates to control and manipulate, and as victims, to  infect “with infections, herpes”, etc.

See the illogic here?

anita