Hey Anita,

I do think I had ever thought about suffering from OCD. At the beginning of my relationship with my boyfriend, there might have been a sign of it because when he gave me his location, I would always check his location to make sure he wasn’t anywhere else and that what he told me in the text was true, for example, if he were at a family’s friend house, I would check every hour or so to make sure that he was there. I do not know what else to do, I check the HCOD forums, and one of the signs that stood out was when I would look at customers that are girls to see if I felt anything for them when I have never even done that in my life. Before that, I was having a stressful week, I had a biology exam that I needed to do, and I was scared of not passing it cause I did not do so well in the first one. I had family problems too, plus having to make these notes for my dad and him calling me every 2 seconds to make sure that they were done or if I finished them, and I don’t know if my brain just picked that thought to start being anxious again. Apart from that, I began to make scenarios in my head that when I saw my boyfriend again, I wouldn’t feel anything at all; I repeated that a lot in my head, and I felt like crying when I wouldn’t feel anything. I want to be back to normal again, lol.