Hi All, was actually in the process of giving you an update, the last 4 days have been nothing short of hell, the anxiety has been the worst I’ve experienced and not slept well at all. Saying that I dragged myself up to go to work today as I don’t want to fall into a deep hole of depression.

I’ve decided the social media withdrawl is going to be permanent for the time being, just seeing that picture felt like a set back from the healing and I’m not strong enough to see any of it so I would just not be exposed to it. I’ve been in touch with the doctors and going ahead with speaking to someone and trying some medication, I just feel I need some help because how I’ve felt has been unbearable and my family and close friend think I need to so we will see how that goes.

I felt like I was getting on top of the situation but that’s clearly not the case, I really don’t want this to be something that affects my happiness for too long and don’t want it to consume me, with the whole thing being amicable and friends thought, thats a long way off and not something I even want to comprehend at the moment, I really need to steer myself on a better path, I’ll get there guys, I still believe.