@Jay2023 I accidentally pressed send without completing my reply. I’m glad you’re feeling the change now rather than just having hope. Bit by bit you’ll surpass all your own goals. Do your best to carry on persevering! Like you said at least you experienced good moments so some of the pain is worth those moments. But one day you’ll meet someone who will love you, support you, spur you to be better and spoil you and then ALL the pain will vanish. Everything will have been for that moment. May that moment last forever. Just got to do some hard work right now to better yourself so you’re ready for her when she comes and you can make better choices.

I can’t wait to read about it. So don’t ever give up! Sometimes the mess and chaos in our lives is what makes us!